The gatekeeper

Day and night beside the gate
my eyes and ears so wide awake
when they enter, my heart plays dead
the gatekeeper, ready to protect himself

So how can you not be deterred ?
when my body's tense and so alert..
using judgement to protect,
all those inner islands I neglect

How many duties do I have ?
Is being wide awake really one of it ?
When the price I continuously pay
is keeping them 200 miles away..

But I have hope, I will adjust
to the flow of life, the flow of love,
have been a gatekeeper for so long,
a programming of heart gone wrong..

So it's time to correct,
this lack of love, lack of self-respect
See me smiling at my faults,
I'm ready to break this ancient wall