The gatekeeper

Day and night beside the gate
my eyes and ears so wide awake
when they enter, my heart plays dead
the gatekeeper, ready to protect himself

So how can you not be deterred ?
when my body's tense and so alert..
using judgement to protect,
all those inner islands I neglect

How many duties do I have ?
Is being wide awake really one of it ?
When the price I continuously pay
is keeping them 200 miles away..

But I have hope, I will adjust
to the flow of life, the flow of love,
have been a gatekeeper for so long,
a programming of heart gone wrong..

So it's time to correct,
this lack of love, lack of self-respect
See me smiling at my faults,
I'm ready to break this ancient wall

Charles Wallace

Small but big thoughts,
good thoughts,
sure where's heading
Love wont hurt
thats what he knows
thats what he shows

Drag me with you
let me visit islands,
islands full of mystery,
full of mystic dreams

And dont stop smiling
while you jump,
from world to world
from love to hurt

I trust your path,
I trust your map,
place hope into those hands,
let grace replace my plans

Move me to tears,
while you gently
plant yourself,
beneath my fears

And as we watch you with delight
our hearts open up,
with smiles so bright
our souls give birth,
to a new wonderful world

As if

As if you were that big
As if I was that weak
As if..

As if they were that strict
As if I was that rigid
As if..

As if it was so hopeless
As if they would judge this
As if...

As if it was existential
As if their thoughts are detrimental
As if..

I let the strings fly
and wave those repetitions good bye
my patterns loose their heaviness
...I remain human in all of this