Thoughts

These thoughts are so pervasive,
in this mind of mine
that sometimes I feel the need
to apologize,
to events that happen in my life
when joy evaporates,
and they dance their tango
in my head
when moments of bliss
get wasted,
while they pair themselves
and hold hands

Thoughts, they say
are important to be thought
but damn it !
not when you're suppose to fuck
or love..for that matter,
feel lifted from any burden
like a tiny little feather,
that doesn't care
where its heading,
enjoying the flow of air
making its most precious moment
the present..

So dear thoughts,
why cant you just get lost ?
Cause as much as you are needed
there are moments,
when you're allowed to leave me

I promise you,
I won't be upset,
as you know
every healthy relation ship,
is in need for a healthy distance
otherwise you might depend on me
and like that,
contribute to yet another misery
that I will have to take care of,
since you scary ass
withdraw yourself,
whenever it gets tough

You've been with me
for so long,
and it doesn't feel polite,
to tell you
that most of the times
you're simply wrong

So let's make a pact:
you leave my psyche,
when I need you to,
but without me
having to remind you

And I will feed you
with only the best
of ideas, plans,
and a bit of brain sex

So until you accept
my modest offer,
I'll be waiting here
in this thoughtless space,
hoping you'll give ourselves
a second chance

Lovely ambivalence

Got my flashlight
pointed at you
Let’s pretend it’s a spotlight
and that no one else
is in the room
Just you, me,
and this poetry
Take my coat
and put it on,
I like how
it makes you seem strong,
And you’ll have to be,
cause you’re about to play
no one other
than me
Now feel this windy
and cold night
While you’re walking
by my side,
Keep my cool
and don’t react,
To the hand you place
gently on my chest
Try to laugh it off
with a joke,
While you notice my hand
slowly falling into yours
Sigh and wait
until you pull your hand away

Can you sense ?
your lovely ambivalence ?

Now you can take my coat off
Today I think
we’ve learned enough

I’d never take,
more than you give
My mind is sane
my body weak
In this world
we’re both small
and maybe not so different
after all..

Anima

Full of shame when others notice you
But embracing the moment,
When I do..
When alone, you and me,
Are surrounded only,
By your feminine energy

Our rituals, so necessary indeed,
Raise in me a fear so deep,
That it fills my heart with doubt
Questioning if,
Your presence is allowed

I get scared,
When I ask for what you mean
But remain relieved,
When the answer vanishes in your steam,
caused by the rage of this archetype,
who is forced into darkness,
and trying its best to survive

And as much as I hurt you
by shutting you out,
and leaving you lonesome,
and full of self doubt
this is the only way,
to carry on another day,
Without feeling the urge,
To pray you away