My apology

“It wasn’t your fault, neither is it mine”,
“I’d have to search, in order to find”,
You told me “I’ll be fine”
Looked at me, then kissed me good-bye

So I went home and cried my desperate tears
Wishing I’d have killed you, then wishing you were here…
And see how pathetic and depressed I can get
Wouldn’t have made you proud though…seeing me going on like that

Tried my best to get rid of this non-reciprocal lover
Tried my best, but why would you have to bother…
Said you passed this scenario in your young and naïve years
Where all you could do, was cry those desperate tears…

And then it was my turn to reject you,
Finally did, what you knew I would do
Sadness and relief appearing at the same time,
Hoping that from now on,…I’m going to be fine

Not that I can make sense of the situation now,
Still can’t explain to anyone why and how?...
I ended up being madly in love with you
Chasing and following, without you really wanting me too

I remember you rolling your eyes,
And then commenting on my sighs,
Remember you trying so hard to be appropriate
Useless attempts though…cause I didn’t get rid of it

Didn’t get rid of the passion to love,
Or of the need to be loved,
And I feel that there’s only one thing left to do..
I apologize for having loved you